I have wanted to be a
blogger for a long time. I guess that makes me a blogger-want-a-be. I started a couple blogs and then quit. No
one followed my blogs or made comments. Maybe that's part of why I quit. Why
continue if all I'm doing it for is myself? But I enjoyed it. Now that I think
about it, that reason alone should be enough for me to have continued.
For fun I decided to go back and read my old
blogs. See what I posted about. Review the projects I completed. Where I was in
my life. What a great time I had going back and reading my posts! My first blog
was called
Scrap On It! But I
later changed the name to A Little Bit of This & A Little Bit of That. I
started my first blog on July 23, 2011. It's hard to believe it has been that
long ago. I started as a way to help me recover from a break up of a toxic
relationship. To take my mind off the hurt and heartache I was dealing with.
The relationship ended terribly late 2010 but recovering from the emotional and
verbal abuse I suffered took a long time. I was devastated when the
relationship ended. Looking back I don't understand why. That was one of the
worst times of my life. It's funny how we can convince ourselves something that
is so bad for us is good and not realize how bad it is until we are no longer
in the situation. But I digress.
My first post introduced myself and talked
about how many UFOs (Unfinished Projects)
or PHDs (Projects Half Done) I had. I talked about how I made a list,
organized my projects and how my system worked for me. After reading my post I
want to reorganize, update my system and begin working on unfinished projects
again. I just realized that my post
invoked the very emotion I wanted. Excitement to do what I wrote about. It
doesn't matter if I am the one that got excited. The post accomplished what I
wanted it to do.
The next several posts dealt with
sewing/quilting projects, baking fun, scrapbooking pages, techniques I tried and events that were
happening in my life. As I read through
each blog post the memories start rolling in. The fun of doing the projects and
the satisfaction I had when I completed something created the desire to jump
back in to getting stuff done. Remembering the fun I had with family and
friends. Not to mention wanting to do
more blogging.
A later post I did talks about the book
52 Scrapbooking Challenges by
Elsie
Flannigan. I forgot all about having this book. I talk about the challenges, my
scrapbooking goals and what I completed. Reading this post makes me want to
pull the book out and start the challenges all over again. Fifty-two challenges
is only one layout a week. That's an easy goal for sure. And I don't have to do
the challenges in order so I can switch things up a bit. In another post I
write about sketchbooks by
Scrapbook Generations. These books are filled with
sketches that are easy to follow and adapt to whatever scrapbooking style you
have. I completely forgot about having these books too. I've moved away from
traditional scrapbooking and gone in the direction of a
Project Life style
memory keeping but these books remind me of how much I enjoyed creating pages.
Something I think I will start doing again.
I found a blog post that deals with being
alone. Living alone. Doing things alone. Having a life alone. Of stepping out
of my comfort zone and creating a life. Funny how life changes but remains the
same. I am no longer alone. I've been in a relationship for almost a year. I've
been in a couple relationships since the one that broke my heart and started me
on my path of blog writing. Anyway, I am not alone anymore but the possibility
of no longer being in a relationship is looming in the horizon. If issues
aren't resolved, the change will happen in the very near future. This brings me
back to my post about being alone. I am again looking at the possibility of
being alone. Living alone. Doing things
alone. Creating a life alone. But this time being alone won't be as difficult.
I think this time being alone will be just fine. I actually like the idea. In
fact the truth be told, I actually miss being alone. How funny is that?
There was a post that had a Project Bucket
List. I went through the list and realized that I completed almost all of the
items on it. I have to say I was quite
pleased to see that. Out of eleven items I listed I got six done. I don't think
I got them all done in a month like I planned. I actually don't think I got
them done in the same year. But the
important thing is they got done. Not bad. I definitely will need to make
another Project Bucket List. I did find another post where I made a List and
this one was LONG. This list didn't get as many completed as the first one.
Some of the items on the list still aren't completed. That tells me I need to
keep the list short and easier to complete.
I got to one post about my big baby Sweet
Pea. I recently lost him to cancer. Seeing that post made me want to cry and
laugh at the same time. So many memories. During this time in my life I felt
like my life didn't have a lot of meaning and I was just existing. But as I read this blog and remember the
events behind the posts, I find I'm missing that time in my life and I'm upset
with myself for not appreciating the time more. Perhaps there is a life lesson
in this for me. Appreciate and enjoy where I'm at in life the moment I'm in it.
The last post I made on this blog was June
21, 2013. I didn’t post every day or even every week. Sometimes I didn't post every month. There was a period of time
where I didn't post at all. Almost eight months without a post. When I began
writing again, my post talked about why I quit. One of the reasons was that no
one read my blog. And I tell why I started writing again. I started writing
again for myself and for my daughter, who was my only follower. This is a
reminder to myself to keep writing even when I feel no one is reading. If one
person reads, enjoys and get something from what I post then that is a reason
to keep writing. Even if that one person is me.
As I read my blog I realize I got a lot of
things done. My posts may not have been fancy. Sometimes they were
"clumsy". Some had a lot of
pictures, some had few. I didn't think to do step by step directions on how to
do something. But after reading my blog from the beginning to end, I am
motivated and excited to go and retry some of the things I did then. So I guess
that makes my blog a success even if it's just me that benefits.
So if you are a new blogger, a long time
blogger or a hit or miss blogger, keep writing. Even if you are the only one
who reads your blog, keep writing. You will enjoy going back and reading what
you wrote. You will get something beneficial from your blog. And that makes
writing your blog worth every minute you spend on it.
Thanks for visiting with me at
Down Home at Dee's
